Yi Jing New

2010-04-16T10:51:00.000-07:00

♥A problem-free friendship

This is so not going to come true.
I am so afraid to post what i am going to post.
But i am still going to post about it.

I am having so many friendship problems.

TO: ******
You made me cry on 15April2010.
3 years plus of friendship.
But I am more fragile than you think.
Though we spent lots of enjoyable moment together (on the phone),
Gossiping about other,
Writing letters to each other,
Chatting till late night,
Those type of time will end as of 15April2010,
When you tell me this 4 word,
重涩亲友.
It is time we let go of our friendship and get on with our own individual life.
You have your own friends so do I.
We are not like super glue who keep sticking to each other.
I think both of us will be better off with our own group of friends.
And don't worry,
Your secrets is still safely kept with me for i won't tell it out to anyone like what i promise you.
Thank you for being my friend for so long.
i appreciate it.
我小姑说没看过我那么生气，所以事情一定很严重。
i know you will never expect this day to come,
So do i.
But it has already come.
So let us both faced up to reality.
And get on with life.
Don't talk to me anymore,
Because i won't answer you unless it is really that necessary to answer you.

To: *******
Since that incident between me and you which involve our junior,
We have not been talking to each other properly.
It was always just a yes or no question,
Or a yes or no answer.
Like you mentioned to me before,
You are disappoint in me.
So am i.
I have to apologize to you before everything at least became normal.
If not,
I have been ignored by so many people.
But well,
I don't treasure this type of friendship and i doubt you will see this.
But still,
I wish you all the best in your life.
For we were never once close before.

TO: *******
We once walked to school together.
Occasionally not,
Because we don't wait for each other when we are late.
Also we don't expect each other to wait for us.
We used to gossip about this certain person,
But now,
I kind of regretted sharing it with you.
Because all i receive back from you as a reward is being criticize by you.
That is one of the reason why i am walking to school alone now,
Or sometime with my sister,
Instead of you.
However,
All the best for your O level.

TO: ******
We once work together.
But quarreled.
You have your supporter.
So do i.
But you are forever causing trouble to me.
Though i appreciate the time working with you,
I don't appreciate the time you cause trouble for me.
And now,
I know we don't smile whenever we see each other,
And we don't talk.
You will only call and scold me whenever something is wrong.
As if everything is my fault.

TO: ******
You have changed.
I have also changed.
We were no longer close.
The words we exchange now is always no more than 5 word.
You choose to trust her instead,
Don't blame me if anything happen,
Because i had tried my best to help you,
But you don't seems to get it.
Or you refused to accept my help.
Try putting yourself in my shoes whenever you think that i am doing something wrong.
Then you would have understand.

Okay, i guess i will stop here because it is 01.55.59 and i am having lesson in like 5hrs time. Hopefully everything will be better after this post. Goodbye my old friends. Thanks for the good memories you all gave me. Thank you my new friend, for standing by my side whenever i am feeling weak, be it physically or mentally. We will sure have a good time ahead right? CHEERS! And i am going to cheer-up now.

I HAD ENOUGH!

2010-04-16T10:19:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Long time since i last updated my blog.
But no different since no one is coming to read i guess.

It is 01.20.30 now.
Yet i feel the urge to post.
Though i don't know why.

There is just so many things to post.
And i do not know where to start from.
So i will just go down the list on my craving.

Studies
♥Improve in all my subjects!
This seems so difficult.
I tried to forced myself to study but i always gave up after 5 minute.
The only 2 subjects i can really study and concentrate is Physics and Chinese.
♥Win HER in all subjects
This is super close to impossible.
Considering the fact that i can't study well now.
I am slowly becoming stupid.
Or rather lazy.
I used to spend time in front of my table,
Figuring out how to do maths questions.
But now?
I still sit in front of my table,
But to daydream.
Haiz.
♥Good results for MYE
This is so not going to happen unless i can get back my mind.
I can't seems to set the right mindset.
♥Good results for Prelims
This is so not going to happen unless i can get back my mind.
I can't seems to set the right mindset.
♥Top in class
This is so not going to happen unless i can get back my mind.
I can't seems to set the right mindset.
♥Get A1 for Chinese 'O'
This is so not going to happen unless i can get back my mind.
I can't seems to set the right mindset.
♥Get L1R4 < 12 for 'O'
This is so not going to happen unless i can get back my mind.
I can't seems to set the right mindset.

Life
♥A memorable 16th birthday
This will never be able to come true.
Because i don't wish to have a grand celebration.
I just wish for all my wish to come true.
Be it they are listed here or not.
But still,
Gwen and Hui Qi, appreciate your present lots.
Thanks.
♥A memorable step down
I have already step down.
But it is not that memorable.
But still,
I am given the chance to study hard now.
Yet,
I can't cherish it.
♥A NEW Hand phone and plan
This should be coming soon.
I♥myxiaoshu.
♥A problem-free life
Life is full of up and down.
SO,
This is impossible.
♥Happiness for all PEOPLE
Like i say,
Life is full of up and down.
SO,
This is impossible.

A column is taken out.
And will be the most newest most.
Which is after this post.

2010-03-31T06:59:00.000-07:00

Forgot to update my blog the last week, haha. Anyway, nothing much to update, haha. So shall begin for this week.

Monday. Can't rmb. But nothing much. Just that English remedial was CANCELLED! WOOHOOOOOOO!

Tuesday. For lesson, i guess nothing much bah, just that hwee wen sick, then went home halfway during lesson. And Mr goh ask me why i crying cause i was like sneezing into the tissue paper or else wiping my eyes, haha. But after school, got speech day rehearsal. Didn't get to open door with ..., was in the contingent, middle, then have to OPEN my SHORT leg for the three row to two row thingy. haha. Went home with Nandhini and Co. Was somehow telling out how ANGRY i was because of .... not because didnt get to open door please. Homed and cooked some tasteless jelly, haha. Cuz my house dun have the weighting thingy, then i just put 2 spoonful of sugar, when i think i should put at least 4, but i didnt get to taste it cause all of it i gave them out as SOUVENIR, haha.

Wednesday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAVERIA. Had a test for SS. Wrote nonsense which took up 1 and a half page i think, haha. Physics, didn't do the hw cause i forgot, lucky mr goh never scold, so decided to pay attention for once, haha. Emaths, understand ah, YAY! Chinese, so interesting, teacher was talking about the si jia mo ni fo. History, mmmm, was bored. So msg liyana (though we were in the same class), and she came to sit beside me. YAY!! Then im so awake, cuz i disturb her. I tell her "liyana, got 'police' outside, want catch theif." HAHAHAH! So nice sittign beside liyana, hehe. Then went to change with aisyah and went for spech day rehearsal. FULL DRESS yet ... ... Anyway, was suppose to run 5 rounds but in the ned mr ho say dun need. Anyway, i cried, but for 30seconds like that. Lucky got st john can made me high, haha. They can treat my thoughts, cause my thoughts is injured, not my body, hahah. THANKs lots to you 4 and those who commented/ talk to me on facebook, msn, sms. Thanks zhuangyi for your LONGLONG sweet, so nice:D But eat 1/4 only, haha.

ANyway, my post shall stop here. What made me cry will not be posted since it's a public blog. But you can ask me on msn or facebook chat, i MIGHT tell, but no promise.

Bye.

Second post

2010-03-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

Hello people.

How has your holiday been?

Well, mine wasn't exactly a holiday, considering that i have to go back to school everyday and till 3pm.

Last friday, i attended PTM. A few things to say though. Firstly, my mum talk to miss yap and i caught miss yap speaking 2 chinese words, heehee. Next, my mum talk to mrs Lim, and lastly, almost everyone went to complain about a certain teacher. But now, i guess i am okay with that teacher le. Had to forced myself to like her teaching, since there is no way to change maths teacher.

Last weekend, i attended a moltivation camp. Hmm, was not really moltivated but well, i learn some skill, which is not a very bad thing. "whatever it takes", "Your worst enemy is yourself", "a good friend scolds you when you are in the wrong while a 'friend' just kept quiet", "Don't mixed with the wrong group of people or your grade might suffer.".

Monday was a holiday for me. So i decided to pack my things neatly and there was nothing else done by me. Which means i wasted a MONDAY!

Tuesday, science camp. Pay attention for chemistry but not that much for physics. Went BPP with my sister, venus and min wen to borrow, read books and to chit chat.

Wednesday, English > Maths > F&N. Nth much bah. Just wanna comment hat there was an improvement in maths lesson cause i understand. Haha. Tried out some maths question at home but gave up in the end.

Thursday, Maths > Amaths > Chinese. "Quarrel" with miss liew and she scold me shen jing bing, haha. Chinese was having test. And i can't concentrate. Think i gonna fail it. Haiz. Actually wanted to give up but ji lao shi say cannot. But at last i still give up without her knowing YET, haha. Chat with JOEY on the phone and i gonna have my candlelight chocolate lunch with her at pistop cafe, hehe. And i know one secret of Joey, *winkwink*.

Friday, Chinese > Mac > mass gaming > shopping. Wear my full guide u to Chinese lesson, so uncomfortable. Then teacher give us one book.

怡靖：老师，我对这本书没兴趣，我对你的名比较有兴趣。
老师：唉哟，我不知道要开心还是伤心。
怡靖：当然是开心，不可以伤心。
老师：你hor,我要跟你妈妈聊天了。

HAHAHAHAHA! But she never call my mum, so it's a good thing. Went to eat mac with venus and shimin. Then to school for guides. Reach pistop cafe, prepare prepare prepare, then went to meet JOEY AND DEBBIE. MISS THEM SO MUCH!!! Found YANYING in pistop cafe, HAHA! But did a lot of running cause was trying to find them, ha-ha. Went to MRT to pass umbrella and bring the participants to pistop cafe. Starting was a disaster, right joey? If you happen to see this. But went round disturbing people, which was kind of fun, especially with the cute little hammer. WAHAHA! Later 4plus, send debbie; my nun to MRT and chitchat on the way. Cheer up and don't get stress up. End with JOEY doing debrief. Anyway, i super envy JOEY for having so much respect from her guides. I would never be able to achieve that. It's not about the part where they call her JOEY mam, but it's another part which Amanda saw as well. Went to meet my aunt at causeway point for dinner. PIZZAHUT, baked rice but couldn't really finished them, then went shopping though i had a very bad headache, but i'm strong, haha. Homed, bathe, SMS, and sleep.

Saturday. Spent my day doing some things which are not related to studies.

Sunday, Went sentosa the casino there with cousin. Nothing much to elaborate there, just that my shugong says i grow small, dunno to be happy or sad ah, haha. But what scare me most was my trip home. Lucky venus talk to me almost all the way. Thanks venus. Here's the story.

I went to take a bus at outram park MRT station. As it was the first station, there was lots of seats so i just randomly choose one and sit on the inside, take out my book and start reading. But soon, i realise that was a WRONG decision. When the bus reach Chinatown stop, an old man get up, looked around and decided to sit BESIDE me, out of so many seats available!!!! But well, i guess i just couldn't get out of there right, cause i was thinking that we should not bully old man, so i just sit there. But during the journey, the man was like screaming suddenly, which was so scary. I wanted to get out of the seat but i realise i could not, because i was wearing a skirt above knee, and i'm afraid he will do something,though i might be thinking too much. And he smell of smoke, which made me feel like vomiting, considering tht i ate chocolate before i got on the bus. So chatted with venus through phone, because i was really scared. Only until i reach the door of my house did i put down the phone. But when i was getting down, i said "excuse me" and he stand at the seat there, which result in me opening my legs wide in order to get out.

From this, i learn a lesson. Never wear skirt (especially above knee) when we need to travel alone and always sit on the outside of the seat so that you can get out easily if anything happen.

With a bye, i shall end my post now.

Never give in! Never give in! Never, never, never, never -- in nothing great or small, large or petty. Never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense.
-- Winston churchchill

First post.

2010-03-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

Hello.

I decided to have a "new" blog. So all my previous post are deleted.

Anyway, will try to update it once a week at least.

Byebye.